A summery summer!

Summer has been fantastic here and hope it continues this way for sometime.

We are waiting for his visa. It is difficult to wait...

Yesterday we talked about senses and dreams. I am glad I don't feel anything like before!  I tried my best not to talk about the feeling and senses I had for him when his mum was unwell. I realized I wrote a post here then... Wonder what these senses comes from. Do everyone has them?

I' rather to enjoy my summer and do not think about these for now.

A New Day

I had to activate child custody for getting main parental responsibility. My ex-husband has made it like a hell for me and I try not to react badly and try my best to keep myself calm. It is a pain when I have someone in my life and can not have here with me because of my ex's reactions. I feel misrable and guilty that I actualy make the situation difficult for my man who cares for me. I have already begun my life with him in my mind. I am busy with how I can make everything ready for him. It is complicated!

Where am I?

Well, After these few months, my life has changed enormously. I have begun a new phase of my life. My marital status has changed, I have moved to a new house and I have got a new job and new position! Year 2014 will be a big year of my life! Just as like as 2001. 

I am single again, but plan a relationship with my ex-boyfriend. The thing is: we never broke up, or may be we were too naive to believe what we did was a breaking-up process! From my point of view, I believed we would never going to meet each other again! The last time we met back 13 years ago, I was sure it would be last time and the kiss was the last kiss. I even had the taste of his last dried kiss on my lips until recently. I have forgotten the taste since I got juicy ones all the time when we met again. :) 
I have to say I am deeply in love and devoted! I love the feelings I have for him and I hope my trust to him is sth. I will always be proud of! 

In the beginning everything were quite strange! Feeling of loving someone so much that wanted to have a child with him was sth. really new to me! I, myself, has talked a lot about not having a child and was almost forced to have my first child after 3 - 4 years rejecting and serious discussions! Now I see another side of me! A woman who wants to have a child with her lover! Feeling to share everything with someone is very different from share everything based on type of relationship. Before it was like: 'I share everything, because he is my husband and it is my duty', now is like: 'I love him so much I want to share everything willingly with him.' What a joy! :) 

 Let's see what happens next!

A meeting!

Currently sitting in a meeting and hope for time go faster by. :-)

The changes have happened to my life recently, are huge! I could not see myself here last year at this time. I was newly separated, had a lot of problems with my ex, had a new project at work I was not really excited for, took 1000-2000 mg asetaminophen everyday, had pain on my back almost everyday...

In two recent months my life style, my job, my marriage condition and my house has been changed to better. I feel blessed! I do not take any medication at all! ahhh, it is a relief!

Let's cross fingers for the better future and move on.

Strange Dream

I had a strange dream last night. everything was about building a new place. My manager was in my dream as well! it was really funny! :-)

Well, I am counting down days now. I cannot wait for the day he moves in with me.

I am not really passionate about getting married with an Iranian man in Iran. I like to marry him in Norway.

Despite of all positive thoughts, I don't want to go through the same thing again! i don't like to ask permission to get passport even from my closest ever person or my soul mate.

I like to have a life with him, I know I love him, I know he loves me, I like to have children with him.  I love every details when I think about being with him the rest of my life.

we can celebrate in Iran, but not officially...


  

How to code!

To be honestly honest I don't like programming now.

I loved it once, but now I am not so passionate about it! i prefer management and coordinating.

Anyway, at last I managed to do highcharts is a nice way and added it in to the project...

Niko Pirosmani and millions of red roses!

Pirosmani is known in Russia for the legend of a romantic encounter with a French actress who visited his town; he was deeply in love with her, and to demonstrate it, bought her enough flowers to fill the square in front of her hotel window (allegedly bankrupting himself). The story became famous when it was recounted in a poem by Andrei Voznesensky, and later into a hit song by Alla Pugacheva, Million of Red Roses.